I feel a little like that girl standing on the high dive today as I share this part of my God-sized dream journey. Holley has asked us to share what we need to stop delaying and start doing. So will you take this leap with me as I share my heart?
Part of what He is calling me to do is reaching out to other moms. This is quite a struggle for the introvert that is part of me. Meeting new people is a challenge for me. Walking up to someone I don't know well or at all gets the butterflies all stirred up and makes my hands shake. You might have trouble seeing that part of me, but alas it is there well hidden.
It is only after I have gotten to know you that the extrovert in me emerges. I am quite comfortable within my circle of mom friends, but what I am learning in this journey is that God hasn't called me to be comfortable. Not at all. He is drawing me out of the circle day by day and it isn't easy or comfortable.
And there are times that I fight it. Hard. I grab hold of the circle tightly, fearful of stepping outside of it. What He whispers to my heart is, "Let go, daughter. I have something so good for you when you do. Trust me." And I want that so badly that I lessen my grip with tears in my eyes and shaking hands.
And I take that first step. That one that is scary and hard and totally uncomfortable. Reaching out to another mom. Bringing her into the circle. Loving on her and sharing Jesus with her. That is the good that He promises.
I don't know if it will get easier to reach out, but I know that I will take each step that He asks of me. I might hesitate and delay taking it, but that is where He works in me. It is in that moment of letting go that I feel Him taking hold of it all.
My friend Holley Gerth invited me to join a group of dreamers that she affectionately calls her God Sized Dream Team. What a blessing to be part of this group.
We will be gathering each week on Tuesdays at Holley's to encourage each other and you to dream those God sized dreams.
Won't you join us?
What is your God-sized dream?
What is your God-sized dream?
Wendy this is awesome. So true it is hard isn't it? To let go of what we hold onto and take those steps!! So glad God is with us each step of the way.
ReplyDeleteThanks so much friend. It is hard. Sometimes white knuckle hard. The beauty is in what we hold onto. Am I holding on to me or Him? And the grace that comes along with those moments of hesitation. He knows me. How challenging it is and patiently walks with me even in those times I stumble. Oh grace. Love you much friend.
DeleteI applaud your strength in following through - and I'll share a sentence someone said to me: "Your comfort isn't serving you well." It was God-sized challenge. (oh, how I relate with every word in your post) I adopted "uncomfortable" as my 2011 OneWord. I pulled that word with me into 2012 with "connect". I've been so thankful for all God has done to make my discomfort into a blessing. I pray you see blessings your faith can't imagine.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much Lori. Your words are such an encouragement to me today. Blessings.
DeleteMy brave friend! I am so proud of you for daring to take this step. I pray that you are filled with love and blessings for each time you extend yourself. You have been such an encouragement to me. I know the women you reach out to will be so blessed as well.
ReplyDeleteThank you Mandy. Just thank you. Love you much friend. Much.
DeleteYes, yes, the high dive. I feel like I climb it every single day. So glad to know I'm not alone! Sending a big hug from my diving board to yours, friend!
ReplyDeleteOh friend...it's a little less scary knowing that we aren't alone, isn't it? Hugging you right back. Thankful for the gift of you in this journey. Blessings.
DeleteThose moms that are already in your circle and the ones that you will be adding are so bless to have you. To admit that you are scared yet you follow His calling anyway will teach them so much more than you realize. You have already taught me that I need to move when He says move. Thanks
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