Thursday, October 25, 2012

A Lesson in Confidence




God had me facing my biggest fear this past week. 
I shared about the beginning of it as I did it scared.

Sunday morning I learned that He wasn't done with me in this lesson yet. Our Family Ministry director asked me just before the first service if I would teach at our 6pm service that night. At the mere question, my heart rate raced and those butterflies the size of cows awoke and went all aflutter. She gripped my hands, knowing full well what was happening inside me, and said these powerful words...
"You can do this."

So I once again said "yes" to what I knew He has been calling me to do and had been resisting. I would so love to tell you that immediately the fear went away, but that wouldn't be true. I will tell you that something happened to me on that stage. Something that is still making me a little weepy.

As I shared with these beautiful kids that I love deep down in my soul about Gideon, I realized that the message He had given me to share with them wasn't just for them, but it was Him speaking to my heart.

I started telling them about Gideon. How he was the weakest of the weak, yet God chose him to lead an army of 300 into battle. Yes Gideon was afraid, but he obeyed God. He did it anyway and placed his confidence in God who promised victory.
Then I heard myself say, 
"Sometimes stepping onto the battlefield in obedience and placing full confidence in God is the victory of the battle."

That was Him speaking to me.
In that moment as I stood on a stage which had become the battlefield where I would fight my fear, God spoke to me in the message I had prepared for our kids. It was like He was saying to me, "All I wanted was for you to do what I've been asking you to do and trust me in it. And here we are, daughter..."

The rest of the lesson was having the kids act out on stage with me the battle that God fought for Gideon without him having to even lift his sword. Watching them act out each part of the story from the angel's visit to the smashing of clay pots and horns sounding was beauty in motion.
Fitting right into the moment was our Bible verse for the week:
So we can say with confidence,
“The Lord is my helper, so I will have no fear."
Hebrews 13:6

I don't know exactly what God has in store for me in all this. I just know that He is asking me to say "yes" when He asks even if I have to do it scared. He is asking me to trust Him and stand on His promises.

I am thankful today for a God who is bigger than my biggest fear.


What is God asking you to do today?

21 comments:

  1. So so proud of you sister! What a beautiful post, as a children's ministry director I was always so thankful for the brave servants who said yes. You are a gift.

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    1. Thank you so much sweet friend. You are such a blessing to me. Love you.

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    1. Thank you so much Jeanne! Blessings!

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  3. Wow, what a fantastic post. You are so brave!! Speaking in front of groups is something that I truly fear and am afraid to do. What a convicting post. Thanks so much for sharing this!! I think something that God is calling me to do today is hand over my fears for the future. I'm so afraid of what I have to do in the upcoming year and I can't enjoy the present. Thanks for sharing this. This blessed me so much!!

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    1. Oh Britt so many of us have that same fear of the future. You are not alone in that friend. I have to hand that fear over to Him each day. Praying for you tonight. Blessings!

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  4. I needed to read this today. Thank you so much for posting. You are brave! Newest follower here :)

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    1. Thank you for your words of encouragement! So looking forward to getting to know you more! Blessings!

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  5. I laughed out loud when I read "those butterflies the size of cows"! I can so relate to that. I've spoken several times at events and every time I feel like I'm going to be sick! I appreciate your obedience in the face of fear. You touched a lot of young lives by living out the word...“The Lord is my helper, so I will have no fear." Thanks for this great post!

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    1. Thank you so much Mary! It is so good to know that I am not alone with those butterflies :) Blessings!

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  6. Gosh, God has been pushing me to do so much lately. I love it, but I am scared.

    I remember when I was working on public speaking. It was scary at first, but then after a while I kinda enjoyed it. (hehe) I hope you get to that point!

    Thank you for this encouraging post!

    www.shepherdsdaughter.org

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    1. Thank you so much! I hope I get to that point too :) Praying that He gives you courage to do what He is asking of you friend. Blessings!

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  7. Awesome. Thanks for the reminder.

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  8. Love the story of Gideon... and love this story you have shared involving Gideon and God's call upon your life.

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    1. Thanks Wendy...Gideon seems to be how God is speaking to me often these days. Blessings!

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  9. A wonderful reminder that we all need from time to time. Thank you for sharing this with Thrive @ Home!

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  10. Don't you just love how sometimes God will use you to speak to yourself. :) What a great lesson - a powerful lesson - and straight from scripture...God's Word living and breathing life into our spirits still today. Thank you for linking up!

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