A Lesson in Confidence

God had me facing my biggest fear this past week. 
I shared about the beginning of it as I did it scared.

Sunday morning I learned that He wasn't done with me in this lesson yet. Our Family Ministry director asked me just before the first service if I would teach at our 6pm service that night. At the mere question, my heart rate raced and those butterflies the size of cows awoke and went all aflutter. She gripped my hands, knowing full well what was happening inside me, and said these powerful words...

"You can do this."

So I once again said "yes" to what I knew He has been calling me to do and had been resisting. I would so love to tell you that immediately the fear went away, but that wouldn't be true. I will tell you that something happened to me on that stage. Something that is still making me a little weepy.

As I shared with these beautiful kids that I love deep down in my soul about Gideon, I realized that the message He had given me to share with them wasn't just for them, but it was Him speaking to my heart.

I started telling them about Gideon. How he was the weakest of the weak, yet God chose him to lead an army of 300 into battle. Yes Gideon was afraid, but he obeyed God. He did it anyway and placed his confidence in God who promised victory.

Then I heard myself say, 

"Sometimes stepping onto the battlefield in obedience and placing full confidence in God is the victory of the battle."

That was Him speaking to me.

In that moment as I stood on a stage which had become the battlefield where I would fight my fear, God spoke to me in the message I had prepared for our kids. It was like He was saying to me, "All I wanted was for you to do what I've been asking you to do and trust me in it. And here we are, daughter..."

The rest of the lesson was having the kids act out on stage with me the battle that God fought for Gideon without him having to even lift his sword. Watching them act out each part of the story from the angel's visit to the smashing of clay pots and horns sounding was beauty in motion.

Fitting right into the moment was our Bible verse for the week:

So we can say with confidence,

“The Lord is my helper, so I will have no fear."

Hebrews 13:6

I don't know exactly what God has in store for me in all this. I just know that He is asking me to say "yes" when He asks even if I have to do it scared. He is asking me to trust Him and stand on His promises.

I am thankful today for a God who is bigger than my biggest fear.

What is God asking you to do today?